So, I made the point to sit this evening. 4 minutes go by, and it feels like MUCH longer. I try again. I work to keep my consciousness on the sounds surrounding me. 3 more minutes go by. There were a couple flickers of being present, but I was completely done after trying for 10 minutes today.
I feel a bit like a looser for not pushing myself harder or being more "successful." But, I need to remind myself that it is all ok and part of the process. So, I will welcome these challenges, and just start again.
Today's closing feelings. Tired. (Woke at 5:15 with a cat ... arch... scratching at the door and then soon after baby waking for the day.)
I feel a bit like a looser for not pushing myself harder or being more "successful." But, I need to remind myself that it is all ok and part of the process. So, I will welcome these challenges, and just start again.
Today's closing feelings. Tired. (Woke at 5:15 with a cat ... arch... scratching at the door and then soon after baby waking for the day.)
I totally hear you on this. I think with a child it's probably soooooo much harder to meditate than it is when one is single. So I would - even though you probably won't - congratulate yourself for even trying for 10 minutes. Especially in today's society where there are so many electronic distractions.
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